And as a libertarian socialist, I think that's great, however I've come to believe I'm incapable of making my own decisions and need some sort of external authority. I've definitely made some choices in what kind of arguments appeal to me and what kind of ideals are important, but in the end, I feel like I'm always agreeing with someone else's argument, not making my own. I started really noticing this with respect to politics in 2008, and that's part of the reason why I erected this (failed) blog. The effort hasn't been successful; instead I've become ever more reliant on authority, at least the kind that agrees with me, and unable to think for myself. I don't have the time or the energy to go through the latest WikiLeaks dumps or any of so many other things I would have liked to have done. I can't rely on my own judgment, because frankly I suck.
11 months ago