My problem

Arthur summarizes my problem well here, not with reference to me, in addressing people's concerns about WikiLeaks. Briefly, the post he is responding to worries that WikiLeaks could be used by the State Department, etc., to leak information, true or false, supporting USGov policies. Arthur's response is that the point of WikiLeaks is to put the choice into each of our hands, to make the information available to every one of us and make us the ultimate arbiters of its meaning. In other words, it's a democratizing force that destroys appeals to authority by vesting authority in all of us.

And as a libertarian socialist, I think that's great, however I've come to believe I'm incapable of making my own decisions and need some sort of external authority. I've definitely made some choices in what kind of arguments appeal to me and what kind of ideals are important, but in the end, I feel like I'm always agreeing with someone else's argument, not making my own. I started really noticing this with respect to politics in 2008, and that's part of the reason why I erected this (failed) blog. The effort hasn't been successful; instead I've become ever more reliant on authority, at least the kind that agrees with me, and unable to think for myself. I don't have the time or the energy to go through the latest WikiLeaks dumps or any of so many other things I would have liked to have done. I can't rely on my own judgment, because frankly I suck.